![]() ![]() It's been about 10 years since I'd taken any medication, tried concerta once during my first semester for a week, it felt just like Ritalin, I hated it. But that's a different story for a different subreddit. After I dropped out, I just worked for 4 years, mostly coffee shops and most of that was at Starbucks, still didn't know what I wanted to do with my life but I was kind of unintentionally thinking "oh I'll just wait til I get married and then figure my life out." As you probably already guessed, that relationship didn't last, and the end wasn't pretty. It was really hard for me to balance my time between that and my extremely unhealthy relationship and friends and homework and sleep and UGH. I was in color guard which took up about as much time as a job would, except I didn't have a job at the time, still lived with my parents. Dropped out my 3rd semester after I called my mom on the first day of classes crying bc I just couldn't do it anymore and I HAD to get out of there. Then I start my first semester of community college, no clue what I wanted to do, didn't really wanna go to school it I felt like I had to, I didn't wanna feel like a bum with everyone else starting college. my parents were well aware of my struggle with school so they were always really proud of my B's and even when I managed to get a C in math. I never cared about getting straight A's though, I just did what I had to do to get by and always was amazed at what I could do even with my awful procrastination habit. I was always failing math (since middle school) but all my other subjects, I did pretty well in, mostly A's & B's. I stopped taking it in 9th grade, when I was 15, because I felt like I didn't need it anymore and I still really really hated how it made me feel. But it helped me with school so my parents did t want to give up yet & they really just wanted to help me. Sometimes I would try to hide the pill in the trash or throw it in the garbage disposal. anyway, all I knew was that it made me feel weird and zombie like and looking back, it's definitely what made me irritable at home and made me lash out at my family sometimes bc I was always crashing from the meds but didn't know I could do anything about it. Other than the fact that I was just a kid and had no clue what was going on.lol. So I took Ritalin from 4th-9th grade, very irregularly which I'm only now realizing how much that probably contributed to me hating the medicine. (apologies in advance for all the run-on sentences, and the jumping all over the place, I haven't been taking my medicine the last few days, will explain why later on) I used quotations around diagnosed because I never actually went through any sort of screening, my doctor just looked at the notes my teacher wrote about my classroom performance and listened to what my mom told him and said, "Yep, classic ADD." At least that's about how I imagine it went, I don't really remember. I got sent to the principle's office once because I was reading instead of paying attention to the lesson. ![]() Hi friends!ΔΆ5F I was first "diagnosed" with ADD around 4th grade, after I repeated second grade because when I would do my school work, I did really well, but the problem was that I just ever did it. This is my first post on Reddit after browsing for about 2 years and not really feeling the urge to ever make a post or have an account.until I came across a really riveting nosleep story and wanted to know when the series was updated.and right now I can't sleep, so I thought I'd share my experiences with ADHD since I recently began taking adderall and Reddit had a been a HUGE help in figuring out what to expect so. ![]()
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